Two Faced? ~ part 4

Only 3 observations, today:

1)  In continuing this journey, I find it worth adding in to the discussion, particularly to the “two points” at the end of the previous post – CLINGING to the Word of God, that is the ACT of BELIEVING God for his promises, is inextricably wrapped up in OBEYING his Word.  So I am not by any means simply talking about the power of positive thinking, but actually taking God at his Word, and DOING what he says.

Most recently I have been spending much time in the Gospel of John, and this is Jesus’ repeated theme – that he has come as the WORD of God, to REVEAL the Father, and to do so by SPEAKING only what the Father would have him speak, by SAYING what the Father would have him say.  In the other Gospels, you see much more of what Jesus said as far as holiness, right living, etc.  In John, written later than the other 3 books, it’s clear John’s purpose is to drive home the point that JESUS reveals the Father, and that we receive the WORD of God by DOING what he says….

2)  Also, the Lord brought home to my mind 2 verses that have been very DEFINING for me in the past few years, and it was as if in reminding me of these verses again, he was bringing clarity back into a lot of what has emerged as confusion throughout this particular “Two Faced?” journey which has now been going on several weeks.

  • What does God require of me?  See Micah 6:8 ~ “He has shown you, O man, what is good; And what does the Lord require of you But to do justly, To love mercy, And to walk humbly with your God?”
  • What do I have to offer God?  See Psalm 19:14 ~ “Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart Be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord, my strength and my Redeemer.”


And as to whatever “whole” of me there is, I think this a) WORDS OF MY MOUTH and b) MEDITATIONS OF MY HEART has to be about the best distinguishing of my internal and external worlds I’ve ever encountered.

3)  Lastly, I have had a “chance” conversation with my roommate who happens also to be an Occupational Therapist by vocation, and a few phrases in to what started as a very normal, giggly conversation about our various quirks, of which I had many, her tone changed, and she began to speak about my vocalized frustrations with myself as not mere “quirks” but, in fact, actual “symptoms” of a condition of which I have never even heard.

She turned immediately to some of her own medical resources, and we got online, and within minutes, she was reading to me lists of symptoms associated with this condition that became glaring sirens in my ears, as if lighthouses suddenly lit up along the shoreline bringing the horizon of the approaching continent into full view, and I’ve only begun to “connect the dots.”  Undoubtedly I will have more to say on this in coming days, but I am VERY confident this discovery is some of the fruit of the Lord’s work in my heart and mind over the past several weeks, even years, as I’ve been trying to dig deeper, and learn to be led by his Spirit as a “true son” (see Romans 8).  It makes sense out of a LOT of what has otherwise been shrouded in mystery even in my own memory.

There is definitely a spiritual reality to many of my struggles and inconsistencies; I am not by any means minimizing this.  If anything, for those of you who know me, I’m far more apt to OVER emphasize this reality.  But I think the Lord may also have finally unlocked for me the main physical snag of my “stuck zipper” analogy from a couple posts ago.

If you are reading this, would you pray with me for discernment and clarity and direction as I begin to seek out solutions in a HOPEFUL, and tangible way?


About Grace2Grow

Leah holds a Bachelor's degree in Philosophy, and considers herself a forever-student at heart, especially of the Word of God. The last few years have included a 160+ lbs weightloss, and a complete re-working of her "inner man" as she has had to journey from merely what she "knew" to putting that into "ACTION" .. a transformation that so rocked her core, she believes God's calling in her life includes a sense of "urgency," as the body of Christ is fully - knowingly or unknowingly - entrenched in These Last Days, just as Jesus prophesied. She has worked in various forms of professional Customer Service for nearly 20 years, from Mortgages and Banking to Automotive Plastics, and values most the opportunity to mediate and problem-solve. Leah has served over the years in varying roles, from Women's Bible Study Leader to Choir Director to Worship Leading to teaching Sunday School to working faithfully in the Nursery. She loves being a Wife and Aunt and Sister and Daughter and Friend, and loves to read just about anything she can put her hands on. She is always re-learning putting feet and muscle to these things, but she has learned there is incalculable value in "working the plan," and "being faithful with LITTLE so as to be entrusted with MUCH." And she is trusting her beloved God and Savior for the "much" yet to come. You can find more of her musings on her blogs at and, or follow her on Twitter at

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