Two Faced? ~ part 1
1 Corinthians 13:11-13 ~ When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; now that I have become a man, I am done with childish ways and have put them aside. For NOW we are looking in a mirror that gives only a dim (blurred) reflection [of reality…], but THEN (when perfection comes) we shall see in reality and face to face!
NOW I know in part (imperfectly), but THEN I shall know and understand fully and clearly, even in the same manner as I have been fully and clearly known and understood by God! And so faith, hope, love abide [faith—conviction and belief respecting man’s relation to God and divine things; hope—joyful and confident expectation of eternal salvation; love—true affection for God and man, growing out of God’s love for and in us], these three;
but the greatest of these is love.
Typically, one doesn’t hope to hear from a loved one or friend that they have Two Faces. That is to say, I imagine this doesn’t make anyone’s list of top ten most desired compliments.
Would it surprise any of my friends, though, to learn that I have long been able to swing easily from the serious (deep) to the silly (ridiculous) and back again? I ENJOY both the clownishness of a Dick Van Dyke style pratfall, as well as pondering theological nuances in engrossing conversation over a snobbish and oh-so-tasty coffee or herbal infusion tea.
More than one of my online dating profiles over the years has contained reference to my fluidity as I move with ease from one mode into the other….and some of my dearest friends have highlighted this very “fluidity” as a strength, not a weakness.
But recently? I was given a good (if challenging) word by dear friends in Christ – not that I am two-faced, per se, as that implies disloyalty or hypocrisy (both of which character flaws I find detestable!), but rather that I am two HALVES.
Like I’ve been broken in half, and one part of me matured and grew into womanhood, and the other part of me did not.
While this might be part of what makes me socially adaptable on a humor level, spiritually this is NOT the Lord’s design for us. Rather, he desires our WHOLENESS. He would bring healing to ALL our broken places, and he would desire our maturity in all things.
This is NOT an anti-silliness post; not by any stretch!
But I’ll be exploring this further in future entries for the following reasons:
- We can be a people prone to using the “ridiculous” as a way to hide from real pain, pain that the Lord wants to HEAL.
- Having a personality that appreciates nuance in creativity all along the spectrum IS a strength – taking joy in the little things, as it were….But while throwing your “emotional weight” around might sometimes make you the life of the party, many other times you knock people over, or even wound some because you’re more aware of your SELF than you are aware of (or loving) others.
- There are real reasons for why we “act out” – whether defensively, in anger, with humor, by taking over a meeting (thinking we’re “leading”), hiding from the crowd, or choosing to take offense – and whenever the root of those reasons is traced back to sin? (whether our own, or sins committed against us by others?) Christ longs to REDEEM us and make ALL things new.
- The Word of God is fit for EVERY area of our lives.
- God’s work of redemption in our heart and lives is to make us one with HIM, and in HIM, there is no division, there is no confusion.
- If I can, by God’s grace, find where the “zipper” to my soul has gotten jammed, perhaps the Lord will allow me to fix it and be again made whole, as one garment, not fractured and vulnerable to the icy attacks of our spiritual enemy or motivated to do damage (however unintentionally) to others that I have otherwise been made (and commanded!) to love sacrificially!
- And therefore if so “comforted” by God, I hope and pray he’ll place me in the lives of others so I may be a witness to HIS grace, and an instrument of God for THEIR healing….
2 Corinthians 1:3-7 ~ Thank God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, that he is our Father and the source of all mercy and comfort. For he gives us comfort in our trials so that we in turn may be able to give the same sort of strong sympathy to others in theirs. Indeed, experience shows that the more we share Christ’s suffering the more we are able to give of his encouragement.
This means that if we experience trouble we can pass on to you comfort and spiritual help; for if we ourselves have been comforted we know how to encourage you to endure patiently the same sort of troubles that we have ourselves endured. We are quite confident that if you have to suffer troubles as we have done, then, like us, you will find the comfort and encouragement of God.
TO BE CONTINUED: